Just days after Hilaria Baldwin bravely revealed to the world that she was “most likely experiencing a miscarriage,” the fitness guru paid a visit to Today on the April 8 episode. While sitting down with hosts Savannah Guthrie and Hoda Kotb, Hilaria opened up even more about her potential lost pregnancy.
“I’m feeling OK,” the 35-year-old confessed while letting out a deep sigh. “This is something that has not been easy. I think I’m going to have the answer one way or the other. I’m pretty sure this is not going to stick.” Hilaria — who is already mom to her daughter Carmen, 5, and sons Rafael, 3, Leonardo, 2, and Romeo, 10 months, with husband Alec Baldwin — even shared the moment when she knew something wasn’t going well.
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“This technician, she just kept being quiet and kept on trying to find the heartbeat. She could find it and she’d listen to it and hear it, [but it was] very spread apart and slow,” the mom-of-four explained. “She said to me that the heartbeat is not very fast. Then I went in again, and in the life of an embryo — days, a week — it’s completely different. And it was the same.”
When Hilaria revealed last Thursday on Instagram that she was convinced she was suffering a miscarriage, the brunette beauty was met with tons of loving support and praise from millions of her followers. That said, she told Savannah, 47 and Hoda, 54, that while coming forward with her tragic story was hard, it allowed her to became a source of strength for women who are suffering from the same problem.
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I want to share with you that I am most likely experiencing a miscarriage. I always promised myself that if I were to get pregnant again, I would share the news with you guys pretty early, even if that means suffering a public loss. I have always been so open with you all about my family, fitness, pregnancies…and I don’t want to keep this from you, just because it isn’t as positive and shiny as the rest. I think it’s important to show the truth…because my job is to help people by being real and open. Furthermore, I have no shame or embarrassment with this experience. I want to be a part of the effort to normalize miscarriage and remove the stigma from it. There is so much secrecy during the first trimester. This works for some, but I personally find it to be exhausting. I’m nauseous, tired, my body is changing. And I have to pretend that everything is just fine—and it truly isn’t. I don’t want to have to pretend anymore. I hope you understand. So, this is what is going on now: the embryo has a heartbeat, but it isn’t strong, and the baby isn’t growing very much. So we wait—and this is hard. So much uncertainty…but the chances are very, very small that this is a viable pregnancy. I have complete confidence that my family and I will get through this, even if the journey is difficult. I am so blessed with my amazing doctor, my dear friends, and my loving family…My husband and my four very healthy babies help me keep it together and have the perspective of how truly beautiful life is, even when it occasionally seems ugly. The luck and gratitude I feel that I am my babies’ mommy, is wonderfully overwhelming and comforting. In your comments, please be kind. I’m feeling a bit fragile and I need support. I’m hoping, that by sharing this, I can contribute to raising awareness about this sensitive topic.
“I wanted to come out and speak about it because it’s something that so many people deal with,” she shared with the two hosts. “Being open for me just allowed me to relieve it a little bit. Secrets are only scary when they’re secrets. Once you let the secret out, it’s not so scary anymore.” Hilaria added that “we just need to be a little bit more forgiving of ourselves” because “it’s hard enough as it is.”
“When we agree to be parents, we have to accept the good or the bad. Whether our child gets a scraped knee or gets their heart broken when they’re a teenager or gets really sick or, God forbid, something worse. We have to realize it’s not just all diapers and blankets and hair bows. We have to open our hearts and realize that there are bad moments too.”
Our hearts go out to you, Hilaria!