This is heartbreaking. Hilaria Baldwin, wife of Alec Baldwin, shared that she believes she is “most likely experiencing a miscarriage.” The author divulged details in an emotional Instagram post to followers on April 4. Although the “embryo has a heartbeat,” the mom-of-four explained that “chances are very, very small that this is a viable pregnancy.”

“I always promised myself that if I were to get pregnant again, I would share the news with you guys pretty early, even if that means suffering a public loss,” the 35-year-old wrote alongside a photo of herself in her underwear cradling a small bump. “I think it’s important to show the truth … because my job is to help people by being real and open.”

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I want to share with you that I am most likely experiencing a miscarriage. I always promised myself that if I were to get pregnant again, I would share the news with you guys pretty early, even if that means suffering a public loss. I have always been so open with you all about my family, fitness, pregnancies…and I don’t want to keep this from you, just because it isn’t as positive and shiny as the rest. I think it’s important to show the truth…because my job is to help people by being real and open. Furthermore, I have no shame or embarrassment with this experience. I want to be a part of the effort to normalize miscarriage and remove the stigma from it. There is so much secrecy during the first trimester. This works for some, but I personally find it to be exhausting. I’m nauseous, tired, my body is changing. And I have to pretend that everything is just fine—and it truly isn’t. I don’t want to have to pretend anymore. I hope you understand. So, this is what is going on now: the embryo has a heartbeat, but it isn’t strong, and the baby isn’t growing very much. So we wait—and this is hard. So much uncertainty…but the chances are very, very small that this is a viable pregnancy. I have complete confidence that my family and I will get through this, even if the journey is difficult. I am so blessed with my amazing doctor, my dear friends, and my loving family…My husband and my four very healthy babies help me keep it together and have the perspective of how truly beautiful life is, even when it occasionally seems ugly. The luck and gratitude I feel that I am my babies’ mommy, is wonderfully overwhelming and comforting. In your comments, please be kind. I’m feeling a bit fragile and I need support. I’m hoping, that by sharing this, I can contribute to raising awareness about this sensitive topic.

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The author continued by adding that she wants to keep things real with her fans, which includes good and bad news. “I have always been so open with you all about my family, fitness, pregnancies … and I don’t want to keep this from you, just because it isn’t as positive and shiny as the rest,” she said.

The Mom Brain podcast host wants to turn her tragedy into a positive message for others. She declared, “I have no shame or embarrassment with this experience. I want to be a part of the effort to normalize miscarriage and remove the stigma from it.”

Before divulging the details about what’s going on with her pregnancy, she shared with readers, “I have to pretend that everything is just fine — and it truly isn’t. I don’t want to have to pretend anymore.” As mentioned above, Hilaria confirmed that the embryo currently has a heartbeat but “the baby isn’t growing very much.” The couple is playing the waiting game to see the outcome but chances are slim this is “viable pregnancy,” according to the brunette beauty.

Although she’s having a hard time grappling with the sad situation, she’s trying to see a silver lining. “My husband and my four very healthy babies help me keep it together and have the perspective of how truly beautiful life is, even when it occasionally seems ugly.” Hilaria also called out to fans to “please be kind” when reacting to her post. “I’m feeling a bit fragile and I need support. I’m hoping, that by sharing this, I can contribute to raising awareness about this sensitive topic.”