It’s been nearly 10 years since Marie Osmond lost her son Michael Blosil to suicide. Since then, the beloved singer and actress has been trying to live her happiest life. In an extremely candid interview with CBS Sunday Morning, Marie opened up about her son’s suicide in 2010 and reflected on the nearly 10 years since his passing.

“You know, I don’t think you’re ever through it,” the 59-year-old beauty confessed. “I think God gives you respites, and then all of a sudden it’ll hit you like the day it did. The ripple effect is so huge, what you leave behind.”

The “Paper Roses” songstress’ life was flipped upside down when Michael, at 18 years old, died in February 2010 after jumping off the eighth-floor balcony of his apartment in downtown Los Angeles. At the time of his death, Marie revealed that Michael was battling depression. He also previously entered a rehab facility in 2007 for unnamed reasons.

After her son passed away, Marie had a hard time adjusting to her new life. In fact, the Donny & Marie star admitted that she didn’t even “want to be home for Christmas,” despite having a huge, loving family to celebrate with. “My brother Donny Osmond said, ‘Let me do it with you,’ and I fell in love with them,” she recalled to Closer Weekly in 2016 of how she learned to celebrate the season again. “I truly believe that you forget your own pain when you help other people have a great time.”

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Marie also admitted that music was a huge crutch following her son’s tragic death. “With my son, to get through that, I sang — and a lot of people judged me for going back to work so quickly,” she shared with Closer. “But I have seven other children who needed to keep living and that was how I processed my pain. Music is a powerful thing. When you stop loving music, you die.”

The Talk host — who is also the mom of Stephen Blosil, 36, Jessica Marie Blosil, 31, Rachael Krueger, 30, Brandon Blosil, 22, Brianna Blosil, 21, Matthew Blosil, 20, and Abigail Blosil, 17 — dished that her career also helped to get her through the dark time. “Music has always been there for me, through the highs and the lows.”

If you or someone you know is considering suicide, please contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255), text “home” to the Crisis Text Line at 741-741 or go to suicidepreventionlifeline.org.