In an exclusive interview with Closer Weekly, Marie Osmond opens up about how celebrating the holidays with her family, fans and music has helped her cope with the grief of losing her son.

“When my son passed away, I didn’t want to be home for Christmas,” she confides to Closer of Michael Blosil’s suicide in 2010 at age 18.

So to escape her pain, she tells Closer she decided to go on the road with a Christmas tour. “My brother Donny Osmond said, ‘Let me do it with you,’ and I fell in love with them,” she recalls of how she learned to celebrate the season again. “I truly believe that you forget your own pain when you help other people have a great time.”

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Marie with her brother Donny.

“With my son, to get through that, I sang — and a lot of people judged me for going back to work so quickly,” she says. “But I have seven other children who needed to keep living and that was how I processed my pain. Music is a powerful thing. When you stop loving music, you die.”

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“Music has always been there for me, through the highs and the lows,” Marie tells Closer.

For the full interview with Marie Osmond, including how she plans to celebrate Christmas this year, pick up the latest issue of Closer Weekly, on newsstands now!

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