Life isn't always easy for Kelly Clarkson.

In a new interview, the music icon opened up about her life of fame — and admitted her celebrity was very difficult for her to handle when she first came into the spotlight 14 years ago.

“I was in a very dark place for a long time,” the former American Idol winner told Good Housekeeping. "It’s just so hard to have normalcy. I love to sing, and I love to talk to people at meet-and-greets. It’s just all the crap that comes along with this job… I don’t love traveling, because I’m never home. It’s hard when you have a family.”

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Kelly in February 2013.

“The fact that I’ve managed to find a husband who understands and respects everything I do is astonishing,” Kelly continued. “The fact that I have these four beautiful kids… I just lucked out. I’m waiting for the floor to drop out from under me.”

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Kelly, 34, and Brandon Blackstock, 39 — who married in 2013 — are parents to a daughter, River Rose, 2, and a son, Remington, 7 months. Brandon also has two older children — Savannah and Seth — from a previous marriage.

Click through the gallery below to see cute photos of Kelly’s kids!