Actress Nicole Kidman just revealed the one career path that fascinated her so much that she almost chose to pursue it instead of becoming a performer. “I loved the idea of being a nun,” the Boy Erased star gushed to Allure in her November cover story, adding that her spirituality almost led her down that path.

“I’m spiritual in that I absolutely believe in God,” she said while noting that the idea of being a nun was enamoring to her. “Obviously, I did not choose to go that path, but I was very drawn to it.” Nicole’s faith is very important to her considering she grew up in an Irish-Catholic family. The Big Little Lies actress even often wears a diamond-studded crucifix gifted from her grandmother that she rarely takes off.

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Perhaps if Nicole, 51, had chosen not to pursue a career in Hollywood, she wouldn’t be one of the most recognizable actresses in the world today. While a showbiz career comes with the fame, fortune, and fans, Nicole explained that she ultimately doesn’t let those aspects of her job get to her.

“I don’t see myself as a celebrity. I’m not a celebrity. I’m not a movie star,” Nicole insisted. “I feel like I’m an actor. Beyoncé is a celebrity. And that’s a much bigger thing.”

The blonde-haired beauty doesn’t give herself much credit, though. Nicole has won a multitude of awards — from Oscars, Emmys, and Golden Globes — so it’s no surprise that the actress is dedicated to her work. During her interview with Allure, Nicole also opened up about a particular day while filming her new movie Destroyer where she had to shoot an intense scene while battling the flu.

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“I had a 102 fever,” Nicole recalled. “When I picked up the [prop] AR-15, I was like, ‘Oh, my God, this is so heavy, I can’t even walk, let alone run across the street.’ I sat down and curled up in the fetal position.” Thankfully, the crew sent the flu-ridden actress home. However, it was a small-budget film which meant an extra day of shooting was not guaranteed. Nicole pointed out though, that the next morning, she showed up to set on time “and we shot the hell out of the thing.” You go, girl!