Most actors can only dream about winning an award like an Oscar, but for Nicole Kidman, her first (and so far only) Academy Award win was clouded by a hidden unhappiness.
In the December issue of Harper’s Bazaar Australia, Nicole talks about the “emptiness” she felt following her divorce from Tom Cruise in 2001. Though the actress’ win for “The Hours” came nearly two years after the couple’s divorce was finalized, she couldn’t help focusing on what she had lost the previous year.
Winning such an award “can show you the emptiness of your own life, which is kind of what it showed me,” shares the actress with the mag. "I was having professional success and my personal life was struggling."
Nicole also talks to Vanity Fair about the demise of her 11-year marriage to Cruise and the role that “The Hours” played in helping her heal. One scene was especially poignant for the actress.
"Walking into the river with those stones in my pockets -- I chose life," she says, of filming a scene as suicidal author Virginia Woolf. "At the time, I was at a low point, and by playing her, it put me into a place of appreciating life."
Luckily, Nicole’s story has a happy ending. She has been happily married to country crooner Keith Urban for seven years and the couple has two daughters, Sunday, 5, and Faith, 2. The blonde beauty also has two adopted children from her marriage with Cruise, Isabella, 20, and Connor, 18.