It’s been five months since Matt Lauer‘s abrupt Today firing following sexual harassment allegations, and today, the disgraced journalist allegedly wants to make amends with all the people he’s hurt over the years.

“He wants to make up for anything he has done to hurt people,” a source told People, adding that he’s still “truly devastated” over the unfortunate situation that ended his 20-year-long career.

Matt first apologized for his actions following his termination in late November 2017, but he’s not spoken out about it since. “There are no words to express my sorrow and regret for the pain I have caused others by words and actions,” he said at the time. “To the people I have hurt, I am truly sorry. As I am writing this, I realize the depth of the damage and disappointment I have left behind at home and at NBC. Some of what is being said about me is untrue or mischaracterized, but there is enough truth in these stories to make me feel embarrassed and ashamed. I regret that my shame is now shared by the people I cherish dearly.”

“Repairing the damage will take a lot of time and soul searching, and I’m committed to beginning that effort,” Matt continued. “It is now my full time job. The last two days have forced me to take a very hard look at my own troubling flaws. It’s been humbling. I am blessed to be surrounded by people I love. I thank them for their patience and grace.”

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Perhaps Matt thinks if he apologizes to everyone he’ll be able to eventually make a comeback. “Matt seems to be under the impression that if he waits this news cycle out, this will go away and he can have a comeback,” a source told Entertainment Tonight in a March interview. “He has seen a lot of people come back and hopes he will too. For right now, his friends feel that isn’t realistic. His team has discussed a public apology, but agreed disappearing right now seems to be for the best.”

However, his former co-anchor Savannah Guthrie and current replacement, Hoda Kotb (who still keep in touch with Matt, by the way), have “no idea” if a return to the small screen is in the cards for Matt right now. “I just know that he’s really focused on his family right now and I think that’s right,” Savannah said. And Hoda agreed. “Yeah, I think that is really where his heart is at this moment — his children and just working on that. So, I think that work probably isn’t in the forefront of his mind.” We don’t know what’s next for Matt, but we wish him luck.