After radio host Delilah’s 16-year-old son, Sammy, died from complications of sickle-cell anemia in 2012 and her 18-year-old son, Zack, committed suicide in 2017, she was left in so much pain. Delilah — who is the mom of 14 kids in total — didn’t know what to do until she experienced a life-changing moment that made her look at things differently.

“There’s a man named Rory Feek who is a country songwriter who lost his wife to cancer,” she recently explained on The Dr. Oz Show. “He called me, and he said, ‘Delilah, your boys are much more a part of your future than they are of your past.’”

“We share the same faith and I just, I was in this rage, and I said, ‘How can you say that? I don’t get to go to their weddings, I don’t get to see their babies, I don’t get to be a grandma, I don’t get to see them graduate, both of them,’” she continued. “And he said, ‘Because you know where they are, and you know you’ll be with them in the future.’”

After Sammy — one of her 11 adopted children — passed away, Delilah said she researched the medicine he was on so she could get a better understanding of what happened to him. “I went into a rage when I started doing the research on the medicine I told you that he was given,” she said. However, the radio personality is still unsure what exact meds he was taking.

As for one of her three biological children, Zack, Delilah — whose real name is Delilah Rene — remembered him talking about “weird space travel and weird time loop continuums,” moments before his death. “[Zack gave me permission] to call his doctor and I did call,” she explained. “His doctor never returned my call.” On October 3, Zack ended up taking his own life, leaving behind a “nine-page letter tucked under the pillow of his bed.”

“It was all about time travel,” Delilah said. “He said he had to fix something that was wrong, and that he would wake up the next day in his own bed, and he would probably have to do this a number of times before he got it right.”

Even though she had to move on, Delilah still misses Zack more than ever! “He had more energy than all my other kids added up,” she remembered. “Just larger than life.”

Our heart goes out to Delilah — who we know she is being the best mom possible to her other kids.

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