Two-time Sports Illustrated swimsuit cover girl Paulina Porizkova, who recently announced her split from her husband Ric Ocasek, speaks to Closer Weekly about starting over at 53 years old. “It’s so scary and weird,” she tells Closer. “I don’t know what to make out of it yet.”

After nearly 30 years of marriage and two sons, she’s not looking to wed again. “I feel like I’ve had my soulmate,” she confides to Closer.

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Paulina and Ric.

Plus, she doesn’t have much time to date. “I’m finishing up a memoir, giving a TED Talk next week, and doing a TV pilot,” Paulina says. “And I really want to learn Italian. I want to seize the day and have some fun!”

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