Sixteen years after her affair with President Bill Clinton became public, Monica Lewinsky is still a go-to pop culture reference.

And in her first televised interview since the scandal, the world’s most famous intern opens up about the media frenzy surrounding their relationship.

“I was a virgin to humiliation of that level,” Monica shares in an excerpt from a National Geographic documentary on the 1990s.

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Calling the public criticism “alarming…frightening…confusing…and excruciating,” the 40-year-old reveals the day special prosecutor Kenneth Starr released his nearly 500-page report on the scandal was “one of the worst days of my life.”

Monica remarks, “To have my narrative ripped from me, and turned into the Starr report, and things that were turned over or things they delved out of my computer that I thought were deleted. I mean it was just violation after violation.”

The interview comes nearly two months after Monica wrote an essay for Vanity Fair on the topic, stating, “It’s time to burn the beret and bury the blue dress. And move forward.”

Monica Lewinsky Speaks Out About Affair With President Clinton

Despite Hillary Clinton’s potential presidential bid in 2016, she felt she could no longer put her life on hold. “I turned 40 last year, and it is time to stop tiptoeing around my past — and other people’s futures,” she wrote.

In addition to speaking with media, Monica is becoming more of a fixture at high-profile events, including an appearance at The Masterpiece Marie Curie Party in London on June 30. And this time, she wore a black dress.