Still a diva!

Mariah Carey suffered through a rough holiday season. She endured one of the most embarrassing moments in her career on New Year’s Eve during a live performance in Times Square for Dick Clark’s New Year’s Rockin’ Eve — and now she’s speaking out about how she felt about her disastrous performance.

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The 46-year-old singer experienced major technical difficulties during her first song — her 1991 hit “Emotions” — when she couldn’t hear the track in her earpiece. She continued to pace awkwardly back and forth on the stage while the song played.

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Mariah performing on NYE.

It seemed like things settled by the time her she started singing her 2005 hit single “We Belong Together,” but production played the album version of the song — which made it easy for fans to quickly point out that Mariah was lip-syncing and thus made her the subject of many jokes and memes. Jenny McCarthy called the show a “trainwreck” during her SiriusXM radio show, and said it was unfair that Mariah was blaming production for her botched performance.

Mariah’s manager, Stella Bulochnikov, expressed frustration with Dick Clark Productions. She told Entertainment Weekly that the production team was notified multiple times before Mariah took the stage that her earpiece wasn’t working and they failed to replace it for her. Stella complained that producers failed to cut to commercial after the problems started, and she also said they refused to cut Mariah’s performance from the West Coast feed — accusing them of sabotaging the singer in order to get a viral moment to improve ratings.

In her own interview, Mariah mentioned that the ordeal wouldn’t have happened if Dick Clark were still alive.

“I’m of the opinion that Dick Clark would not have let an artist go through that and he would have been as mortified as I was in real time,” Mariah told EW.

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She said the performance won’t stop her from signing on to any more live events in the future, and she even thanked her “true” fans for their support in the days following her performance.

“It really was an incredible holiday season that turned into a horrible New Year’s Eve,” she said.