How terrifying! Carrie Ann Inaba got candid about a very personal issue during her guest appearance on The Talk on Tuesday, Oct. 2. During the sit-down, she opened up about a scary reaction she had to taking antidepressants recently. 

“There was a time, a few years ago when my father died, four days before Dancing with the Stars started, and I went through a whole bunch of problems,” she emotionally explained on the talk show. “I moved and my fiancé and I broke up, and I had to go on antidepressants.” Carrie, 50, and Rob Derringer, 51, called off their nine-month engagement last September. 

Carrie added of her decision to make meds, “You can’t judge people for being on meds because it’s very personal and you have to make the choice that is right for you.”

She then, however, revealed a very scary note about the medicine’s side effects. “I want to share something, when I took the med it caused me to have this weird hallucination of me stabbing myself over and over again,” Carrie shared. 

Fortunately for Carrie, she had her friends and family close to her during that frightening time. “I was lucky that I was healthy enough and had a good support system that I could say, ‘What is this? It doesn’t feel like me.'”

She also turned to doctors to help her understand the issue, and before she knew it, things turned around. “Then I changed the meds; I was on them for three months. They helped me find a new homeostasis and remember what it felt like to feel good… for me it was very helpful, even though I had some struggles.”

Today, Carrie is a judge on Season 27 of Dancing With the Stars. On top of that, it’s been hinted by Julie Chen that she may take her place on The Talk following her departure. “Carrie Ann, I don’t know — but in my opinion, you look awful good sitting in that chair, my Asian sister,” Julie said in her farewell clip. We agree!