Though she's already a mom to a six-year-old son, Dashiell, Sophie B. Hawkins admits being pregnant again at age 50 is definitely more difficult the second time around.
In a new blog post for 'People,' the 'As I Lay Me Down' singer — who is expecting a baby girl after being implanted with her own frozen embryo — confessed she has dealt with significant self-doubt during this pregnancy.
Sophie showed off her growing bump during an interview on April 23. (Photo Credit: Instagram)
"During the first three months, there were moments when I thought I made a mistake, when the positive notions about having a second child couldn’t overpower the nausea and dread that I was ruining my son’s life and my own. I [was] depressed and befuddled by my bizarre life planning," she wrote.
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Sophie additionally opened up about an emotional moment where she realized being in her 50s will greatly affect her ability to mother both Dashiell and the new baby in the years to come.
"A year ago, as I was coming up the dimly lit stairs of our dingy, overpriced apartment building, I witnessed an old man making the arduous journey down. Alone and fragile, he had the air of an abandoned man," she began the anecdote.
Sophie's son Dashiell on December 27, 2014. (Photo Credit: Instagram)
"When I entered my apartment and closed the heavy door, I cried because I wouldn’t be alive to take care of Dashiell when he’s old. That my son might ever be so alone as to appear forgotten was too much to bear. I have to have another child. I have to bring someone into this world that will be here for Dashiell," Sophie wrote.
At nearly seven-months pregnant — she's due in July! — Sophie said the most difficult part of expecting is still to come. "Pregnancy is uncomfortable and draining, and the end isn’t in sight until it becomes unbearable," she wrote. "This pregnancy has really stripped my leaves, and I’m starting to know what I’m made of."
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